This Blog

Yesterday Kristen at We Are THAT Family asked the question how did you start blogging...

It got me thinking back on the way it all started.  I had read blogs before, my former pastor Tally had a blog and still does, I read him daily.  Until last year though I had no idea that all the mom blogs were around.  And then I stumbled upon Rocks in My Dryer and Big Mama and my life changed forever.  I really enjoyed blogging but I didn't do it daily.  It was something I wanted to do but until I realized I could just be me and talk about what I want it was kind of an action not a real passion.

Last fall that changed, we had decided to have a vasectomy reversal and who better to share that with than the World Wide Web!  I realized people were praying for me, they told me so.  I started to share more and more, and read more and more, I read of childbirth, loss of a spouse, sick children and I prayed.  I felt like what was going on in my little life was making a difference in other peoples lives, people emailed me about there need to have more children, or how to lose weight with WW.  That's when this blog became more that just something to do, it became part of me.  I had no idea what all of your comments would mean to me.  How you all would encourage me and how I would actually make some friends who would even know my real name....

I thank you all!  I love this blog, I love reading all of your blogs very much.  I love that I can be real here,  I can share about my crazy kids or my deep need to have another child and you all understand.  

Please continue to pray for me.  I will find out next week if I am pregnant or not, it has been 6 months since HD had his reversal and it isn't getting any easier for me to except the waiting.    Dr Leverett told us that it was all in Gods hands, and he is so right.  The average time for a healthy pregnancy after reversal is 8 months.  I try very hard each month not to allow the wanting to consume  me, sometimes I do really well and can actually put it out of my mind all together but around this time (a week before) each month I become Consumed, I find myself looking for signs and symptoms all day....  Just about a week ago my sweet SIL called me and told me she had a dream that I had a little girl, I was encouraged because the hardest part about my grandma being diagnosed with Alzheimer's is that I really want her to know my children.  It breaks my heart to think that she could possibly not know them.  She is doing really well on the medication, she has already shown improvement so now I am just praying for a blessing a child.

Thank you all for being here, thank you for your prayers, thank you for listening.