Wednesday, August 6, 2008

This Blog

Yesterday Kristen at We Are THAT Family asked the question how did you start blogging...
It got me thinking back on the way it all started.  I had read blogs before, my former pastor Tally had a blog and still does, I read him daily.  Until last year though I had no idea that all the mom blogs were around.  And then I stumbled upon Rocks in My Dryer and Big Mama and my life changed forever.  I really enjoyed blogging but I didn't do it daily.  It was something I wanted to do but until I realized I could just be me and talk about what I want it was kind of an action not a real passion.
Last fall that changed, we had decided to have a vasectomy reversal and who better to share that with than the World Wide Web!  I realized people were praying for me, they told me so.  I started to share more and more, and read more and more, I read of childbirth, loss of a spouse, sick children and I prayed.  I felt like what was going on in my little life was making a difference in other peoples lives, people emailed me about there need to have more children, or how to lose weight with WW.  That's when this blog became more that just something to do, it became part of me.  I had no idea what all of your comments would mean to me.  How you all would encourage me and how I would actually make some friends who would even know my real name....
I thank you all!  I love this blog, I love reading all of your blogs very much.  I love that I can be real here,  I can share about my crazy kids or my deep need to have another child and you all understand.  
Please continue to pray for me.  I will find out next week if I am pregnant or not, it has been 6 months since HD had his reversal and it isn't getting any easier for me to except the waiting.    Dr Leverett told us that it was all in Gods hands, and he is so right.  The average time for a healthy pregnancy after reversal is 8 months.  I try very hard each month not to allow the wanting to consume  me, sometimes I do really well and can actually put it out of my mind all together but around this time (a week before) each month I become Consumed, I find myself looking for signs and symptoms all day....  Just about a week ago my sweet SIL called me and told me she had a dream that I had a little girl, I was encouraged because the hardest part about my grandma being diagnosed with Alzheimer's is that I really want her to know my children.  It breaks my heart to think that she could possibly not know them.  She is doing really well on the medication, she has already shown improvement so now I am just praying for a blessing a child.

Thank you all for being here, thank you for your prayers, thank you for listening.

10 comments:

marky said...

aww.. praying for a pregnancy. We almost went through a reversal several years ago.
We are now looking at fostering to adopt?

Amy said...

We will pray for Boo and for you to be blessed with one more little one. I think Boo's sister is in denial about her recent diagnosis. I know it's hard. Glad to hear she's improving. That was a nice post.
Laughter keeps me going so my blog today is a bit goofy...beware.

We are THAT Family said...

I know it must be hard to be patient, but God has you in His hand. I need to hear that too today.

Growin' with it! said...

i sure know what you mean about the blog being a part of you! it has been such a joy in my own life.

MoziEsmé said...

Oh - I wish you all the best in your quest for a new life!

onemoreequalsfour said...

I am so grateful that you blog. You have truly become an internet friend to me. Keep it up. I will keep you in my prayers. I know how hard the waiting can be.

Amanda said...

I'm glad you're a blogger. I love reading about your life. I understand that waiting, and will pray for you.

P.S. He loves you... said...

Blogging has been more theraputic then I ever thought possiable...now if I could just get to bed at a decent time!

I hope that you will soon your answers to prayers...here's what my80year old Grandma told me recently.
"HE doesn't start something without finishing it, I mean look at my life, Dawn"

It's gonna be a great year for your family and I for one am so glad to be able to read it on your blog! So be patient on those post!

JMR said...

I'm so glad you blog!

We are "waiting" for more blessings too! I will pray for you and your family; please pray for us too. It's so hard to wait...things really are in God's hands and He does know what's best. I like to be in control and the not knowing and waiting makes it tough. I guess that's one way God is telling me to let Him be in control. Please let us blog readers know how things progress as we continue to pray.

Becky said...

Consider yourself prayed for! :)

Glad to have found you on the web...

I don't think it was through Walt Disney and an STD though.
???

Wierd.
The Maid