Womans Bible Study

We had our first real meeting today. We are reading the book - A Mom after Gods own Heart-
I am very hopeful about this group we all really seem to click and I am looking forward to growing with this group of woman. I am excited about what God can do if you let him and I am excited to see what he has in store for us Mommy's. Another book I am checking out is - Created to be his Help Meet.
I am getting settled in to the routine of school and Bible study and pre-schooling and everyday stuff... It was hard getting back to a schedule.
I am really getting alot out of the Purpose Driven Life book our small couples group on wed nights is reading, yesterdays was most moving about what would you change if you knew it was your last days? Wow what a question, 1. I would never let another day go by with out telling my children about how much Jesus loves them 2. I would never yell again it doesn't work anyway. 3. I would praise God before I made any requests.
Now as I re-read this book I must remember this is just practice for my eternity and I need to follow these few thoughts God has brought to my attention.

Small Groups

Have I mentioned how amazing being a part of a small group can be? The week before last we moved my grandparents furniture from their storage unit into their new house and our small group showed up to help. Our friends Zack and Kim also helped pack the unit when my Grandparents moved here from Ohio back in May they also helped move furniture into our house for them. A few weeks ago Zack helped load the moving truck and unload into the house working for hours, while Kim helped with all the children. Our friend and fellow small group member Todd also helped all day. It is just amazing these people brought together by God to help one another with our lives! I am very grateful to our friends, I am grateful for being a part of a small group! Small groups are amazing and that is where real live come as you are friendships happen!

Money!

If you have been reading my blog you know after a mistake almost 2 years ago Daddy had a vasectomy. Well just recently Daddy came to me and said he would have the reversal surgery. Now is the hard part, where do we get $6,127.00. Expensive mistake!
I have prayed for Daddy to want more children, I have prayed for God to heal Daddy, I have prayed for myself to get pregnant, but I have not prayed for money. I guess I almost feel like it's not right to ask God for money for this surgery. See, we do not like loans so Daddy is against a medical loan, and I am too. I can't see a monthly payment taking money away from the three kids we have to pay for a child we don't have being the right choice.
I have been having a hard time with the fact that there are pregnant woman everywhere and new babies everywhere... At church on Sunday we where talking about where could we get the money, I could always do some typing or call center work from home but that is really against what we believe God has set forth for our lives. Me being a stay home mom is one of the most important things in my life, and any work out side of being a bible study leader or being the kids teacher would take away from my time with them and again I can't take away the little time I have for my kids to provide for a child we do not have yet.
So I am very conflicted, I want to be pregnant now I want to move forward I hate waiting and yet I do have a peace that I will be pregnant again. I am continuing to pray for healing I am going to pray for our finances that God will provide a means for this surgery if he does not heal Daddy.

Tate and Reese

These pictures were taken

on the day after Bo and Dasiy's birthday party...

The babies are now both over 12 lbs, wow!

Dana and Joe are bringing them to visit this weekend so more

Pictures are to come.

Extending Yourself?

We are going through a series at church about church family's, we are learning about the real intent of the early church.... Meeting in homes, extending yourself to the community, helping others, a connection with others. We are learning how people have been hurt in so many churches due to the fact that so many times people act like the building is church not the people in the building. People act different in the building than out of the building, People laugh at different jokes outside of the building than they would in the building, People would watch different tv shows outside of the building than in the building... What if we acted like the church was the people we came in contact with each and everyday. What if we extended our self to the undesirable people we came in contact with, would then we be living our purpose, would then we have life and life more abundantly, would then we be more like Jesus and less like our self?
I can grasp the concept of Church real church, I have attended both the Church which is striving to be like the Church we read about in the New Testament and I have attended the church you must have a matching purse and shoes and what is it you drive? Oh and don't every let your tattoo be seen...
I really want this kind of relationship with Christ the kind where I see every opportunity an opportunity to share the love of Jesus, I am constantly feeding in to the lies Satan in planting like how can I witness to that cashier my kids are acting like they are on wild animals just released from the zoo.
I do a great job of talking to God about all my thoughts and sharing my day with him, I need to not keep him to myself... I have longed for this opportunity this summer as I knew the small group would start this fall, the only problem is the members of this group already know Christ, don't get me wrong I know God has led me in the direction of leading other moms to grow in the walk with their husbands and children, but how do I a stay home mom of 3 find people to witness to? Maybe invite some of daddy's co-workers and their family's over for dinner, or what about invite the unmarried mother of 3 from football to meet at the park? Did I mention that all of her kids are not by the same daddy (what would people think, I am going to be a bible study leader and all) I was raised in a church were if you entertained this kind of lady you would then look like her and that would hurt your witness.... But if you never talk to the lost how and who do you witness to?
So as I keep putting the old Southern Baptist teaching out of my mind and remind myself to keep pushing and remain a little uncomfortable. The opportunity is out there if I look for it.
Maybe just maybe an unsaved Mom would benefit from seeing that I sometimes yell at my kids or even that me a big old Christian has kids that disobey their parents....
I will be trying to Extend myself Extend my borders.